Been more than a lil' lazy

I suck, I completely and utterly suck and this sticking with it thing LOL. Why is it so hard for someone who knows what they have to do to loose weight to do it?? Why can I manage to stick to something for 30 days and then totally fall off the wagon?

I haven't been exercising. Its like I get to bed too late. I tell myself every single night...no later than 10:30....11 max. Then its 11 or 11:30. So really I need to make an effort on that. If I get to bed too late I can't get up early enough.

Eating. I started the ishape.com program. It looks good and I started to eat clean yesterday. I did good till last night then blew it. Sometimes I don't know what is wrong with me. I'll do so good then just quit thinking about what I want to eat.

But at least I'm trying right? Trying is better than not trying.

I think its set we are going to start trying for another baby in August. So I really need to get my ass in gear. I would like to loose 20 lbs at least.