160.4

Fluctuations in weight, plus my period is coming. I had a slight cheat over the weekend but nothing like I did before. I had Dippin Dots on Friday (I really do love those) and then I ate lettuce wraps at Chilis and a vodka tonic. Not such a bad choice but there was sugar in the lettuce wraps. I was still at 159 the next day.

Then Sunday I was at 160. I had ate coconut breaded shrimp with a mango sauce the night before. Not a lot of it but I guess enough.

At any rate I'm still doing good and my skin is clearing. Usually the few days before my period my face starts to get a mess!! I'm still clear, this is amazing.

Myers grocery didn't have enough good veggies and I need to run to safeway because I feel like I hardly have anything to eat at home. I've gotten to love Spinach in my salads!

159.8

Ok here you see me doing the little happy dance like snoopy does. Can you see it?? LOL.

For 2 days I was holding on to 160...160.8, then 160.2. I weighed 2x's this morning, ok 3. Just to make sure.

I had some cravings the other day, the day when the donuts came (which I never touched ) so I went to Martins and picked up some CarbIQ Mint choc. chip ice cream that was on sale. It tasted good but OMG I got such painful gas from it. I've never had problems with Sugar Alcohol before but apparently what they use in the Turkey Hill stuff is a doozy to me. Last night I had a little too, gas was there but less painful. I didn't want to weigh till next monday but I really wanted to see if the ice cream screwed me and it didn't. I don't plan on making it a regular consumption because of the gas factor/possible stalling, but I am going to put it in the freezer downstairs. There it won't be so visible, but it will still be around for a mega craving.

The old hag should be coming next week so I HOPE she doesn't bring awful cravings or bloat with her. I'm so happy 5 lbs, that's big for me. I haven't seen any 150's for a year : /

Now I just need to make it through the weekend. We go see Larry the Cable guy tonight. I do want to drink but I'm going to make sure I eat a low-carb meal and any alcohol I will pick a sugar-free option. I think vodka/tonic is safe.

160...

Yeah, this morning I was 160.8 again. A little surprised as I was only 162 yesterday. I guess maybe a clean induction pays off. Since Monday I've been chugging water, and no Diet Pepsi Vanilla like the last 2 weeks. No low-carb candy, I think I had one almost every day last week. I'm going to attempt not to weigh until next Monday, I may have to put away the scale when I get home.

But........oh the temptation is staring me in the face today. Now I got over the chocolate sitting on my desk, I haven't touched that since I started on 1/11. Part I think because I got through my chocolate binge around Christmas and there isn't the appeal anymore. But Servepro came today and brought DONUTS!!!! Good looking DONUTS, with frosting and jimmies : { Now they are sitting in the kitchen, and I avoided them at lunch while 2 people ate them. Diane wants me to take one home to Dylan and I will because I do know he will enjoy it. I think part of what keeps me from going in there to get it......is the loss I saw today. I don't want to go back, I dont' want to mess up, I don't want to start over again. I really want this clean induction. There is also this little demon inside of me saying, well instead, since you want a taste of something so bad, go over to the drugstore and get a 1carb Reese cup and a Diet Pepsi. Well no, no, no. I can do this, just anytime I keep thinking about it I just chug a little more on the water. I'm not hungry, I had a filling lunch (potroast, cauliflour, Zucchini saute w/feta) so its a mental thing. If I'm going to cheat I'm not going to do it because something just happens to be around and not for a donut either : /

163

Alas its my fault also. I cheated this weekend so 2lbs water weight back on. A few thoughts had been going through my head and not to excuse the cheat but that's part of why I did it.

One was I got the Ketostix the other week and immediately upon using them they were turning dark purple. I had never used those before when I did Atkins so I had nothing to compare it to...to see before Ketosis/after Ketosis. So I had Shrimp chow mein on Friday for lunch and when I got home I used a Ketostix and sure enough..I wasn't in Ketosis. Then that night Bill and I went to Outback and I really wanted a Wallaby Darned and I didn't eat anything too bad but it ended up being a cheat weekend. I didn't go overboard I just ate some carby items.

Two was I wasn't doing a really true clean induction. I read over the book this weekend and I am wiping out the diet pepsi and fake carb products. I want to see what a clean induction will do for me. If I do any fake sweetners it will be 3 by the book.

At any rate, here's to a clean induction!

Thoughts....

Hmmm I haven't posted in a few days. This morning my weight was 161.8 and I'm pretty sure I was down to 160 the day before. At any rate I've decided to go back to weighing weekly. I hate the dissapointment you get from a natural fluctuation in weight. I don't think I consumed enough water yesterday. Weighing weekly shows an all over general loss.

I also want to start writing down everything I eat....to see just how many carbs I consume. Then when I decide to move to OWL I won't worry because I'll know just how much I'm upping the carbs and how much I'm consuming.

Other than that I need to remember patience. I've been sitting at this weight range for quite awhile and if I stick with this it will come off. But I am so ready to move into my smaller clothes. Not having to wear the same old stuff all the time because I don't want to buy a ton of new bottoms.

161.0

This is just fantastic. The first time I've seen the scale move in the right direction in a LONG time. I dipped to 161.8 over the weekend and here I sit at 161. I can taste the 150's LOL. And this morning my freshly washed work pants weren't as tight in the thighs, that's nice!

The only thing that is truly hard for me on the weekends is breakfast in the mornings. I always make Bill and Dylan pancakes or yesterday biscuits and gravy. It just sucks making the other food for them and I'm not eating it. But instead I had a nice egg scramble w/cheese and a veggie sautee on the side and bacon. I think I actually prefer turkey bacon to pig bacon, a lot less greasy. I would love to find a local place that has nitrate free bacon. The pluses to not eating what they are is the tired feeling I usually get after breakfast on the weekends. Pancakes and syrup always equal a big sugar crash for me.

This week I want to continue on induction of course and work on getting the artificial sweetners out of my diet. Of course I don't think I consume that much anyhow but make sure I stick to Dr. A's rules of no more than 3 per day.

A discovery...

First off my weight was about the same as yesterday..162.4 or .2.

I learned a few things yesterday that were quite interesting. One is that I'm going to drink Diet Pepsi very sparingly, if at all. I do enjoy it, it is no calorie but it gives me cravings. Yesterday afternoon I had some serious cravings..for what I don't really know. I just drank a ton of water and told myself it would pass. So I did a web search on "Diet soda dangers". Besides them being chemical laden the other thing mentioned again was the cravings. People who drink diet soda and think they are going to loose weight usually don't because of the cravings and chemicals.

The other thing was I'm going to watch my intake of sugar alcohols and splenda. Again besides the chemical factor Splenda is really sugar that's been chlorinated, like chlorine bleach, like what you put in a pool! Ack. Do I really want to put that in my body??

On the Atkins message board I put up a few things that was concerning me. Mostly the fact that I can't ever have chocolate again or Frappuchinos makes me a little sad. That I would like to think on down the road, some day when I reach goal I could have one ever now and then. Some people told me once you get to goal the same things just don't appeal to you. The want is there but you know what it took you to get where you are at. Some people can and do indulge every now and then. Its a matter of knowing yourself. Really chocolate and my lack of restriction with it and Frappuchinos is what got me where I am. I think I would like looking hot more than drinking a Frappuchino anyhow.

162.8

Getting closer ; ] I had a talk with Bill this morning, just a little side mention, that since Valentines is coming up please don't bring me chocolate or anything from Starbucks. Not that he brings me stuff like that all the time but I would just feel so bad if he brought me chocolate and then I say, well I can't have it. My Mom knows about it too.

Yesterday I did good, no cheats. BUT again some more processed Atkins stuff which I want to work getting that all gone and eat really clean.

I had an Atkins bar for breakfast, 7 hickory farm sausages as a snack before lunch (hungry), lunch was a zucchini sautee w/broccoli and chicken, cheese stick snack, dinner was salad like the day before and 2 bunless double cheeseburgers from McDonalds. Another Diet Pepsi and lots of water.

Again still eating well, or better than before, but I can do better. I'll loose faster and better when I can give up the other junk.

163.4

Its a step in the right direction. Yesterday I did fairly well, I ate all Atkins friendly foods, though maybe not all induction friendly. I did manage to ward off all regular sugar and that's a big one for me to get through.

Breakfast was a larger Caroline's awesome shake - 7 carbs
Lunch - 2 hamburger patties w/1 cheese slice and a little squirt of low carb ketchup, zucchini and onion sautee w/feta cheese
snack - String cheese stick
Dinner - an awesome salad. Romaine, spinach leaves, 1 hardboiled egg, 2 turkey bacon crumbled, chicken, a little cucumber, some grape tomatoes, a little feta cheese and 3 Cheese Ranch dressing. YUMMY!
Before bed I got a little grumbly so I had some cheese nips made from cheese in the microwave.

I drank lots of water and drank one diet vanilla pepsi.

This morning was an Atkins bar, not the best choice but a hurried one.

My next goals are to putter around like this for the first week and work on dropping my diet sodas. I don't drink them alot really but one a day can be enough to give me cravings. I also want to work on making better breakfast choices and staying away from the frankenfoods.

Nothing changed

Same weight 164. My fault. I started out well but I ended up making excuses and just continued to eat as I had been. We had a meeting at work on Thursday and I knew they were bringing bagels and I just ate one : /

So today is Tuesday January 11. So far so go this morning had an Caroline's awesome shake. Its about lunch and I'll have 2 hamburgers with cheese and a zucchini sautee w/feta cheese. I just know I need to do this. I worry because my grandmother and my Dad is diabetic (on different sides) and I worry I may one day end up with the same fate. If I control my diet then I don't have to worry about that.

I also spent a little time on live journal reading scores of people who lost weight on Atkins...easily and have kept it off. People meeting goal in 6 months or so. I know if I can buckle down and do this, really do this the weight will come off. I may take someone's suggestion I read and buy a bikini and just hang it up. I will wear it to the beach this summer. I can do this! I can and will be a hot mom LOL.

164.4

Should have mentioned that was my weight yesterday morning.

New Year....

So its the new year and I'm ready to make a change. I felt starting any kind of diet plan during the holidays would set myself up to fail.

And for the record I do not believe in the word diet as in what it has been adapted to become by society. By society "Diet" means to totally restrict your way of eating then go off of it and gain all the weight back ; ] Diet by definition is something like...your normal way of eating.

So yesterday I started Atkins, I've done it in the past and really liked how I felt. My skin would clear up, the pounds dropped with little effort, I felt full and didn't have cravings like on a high carb diet. So since I've done Atkins a few times and know all of this why did I quit?

Well with anything in my life, diet or exercise oriented I have an awful time sticking to it. Its me, I don't like putting blame on others. It is hard though with a carb fiend husband so sugar is abundant in my house. We don't eat out a lot but when we do I see it as a special occasion and will eat whatever. Usually a high fat, high carb, high sugar meal. I need to change my diet, on Atkins I was eating more veggies and I felt good. I read recently on a message board that they had fallen off the wagon a few times but the last time they got back on it stuck and their health was all the better for it. I think if I make myself stick to it, if I can hang on for a good 2 months (I quit at a month last time...just as I was seeing results) then I will see enough results I won't want to turn back. If I get off the wagon for one meal (not a whole day) I will get back on it.

That is where my problem usually lies. If I have one cheat meal then I deem it a cheat day, and a cheat weekend and I never get back on. That is where my main problem is. I know this so lets work to change that. I am 26, I am a woman, I have control over me and I can do this.

So yesterday was induction and as with anytime I start my first day I get a headache. I did Ok yesterday. I did do some Atkin's no no's. You really should stick to real foods as much as possible and I ate 2 breakfast bars and then later had a diet pepsi. So all in all I did good that it was a better eating day than usual....bad that I had the processed items.

Last night I stocked the house with some meat and grape tomatoes for my salad. Need those tomatoes!!

Thursday we are going to have a meeting in the office in the morning. I have a feeling they are going to bring breakfast, usually high carb, so I'm not sure quite how I will handle that. Maybe just have one cream cheese bagel if its whole wheat....and eat beforehand so maybe I can dodge it altogether.